My blog is ugly and other things…
The weather outside is gray and misty. And inside this morning I feel the same. After my husband signed me up for the best in western washington I found myself studying the competition- mainly the top 5 contestants. I found people with over 4,000 fans on facebook, huge bold photographs on their blogs, bright colors on their walls, giving away free stuff to people who vote for them, pristine websites, music, etc. The list goes on and on. Things I don’t have that they have. My blog leaves something to be desired in the way of design, no big bright photos, my post-processing lately is dark, my website is under construction… And the more I compare myself the deeper into the gray I go.
There is something to be said about healthy competition. Honestly, I thrive off of it at times. I take pride in the fact that if you come to me for photographs you will get something that you will not find anywhere else. My process is different, what I offer is unique, and in the end your images will tell a story. I love that. But it’s the age old story of being unique but wanting to be like everybody else. The same problem I had in fourth grade rears its ugly head in the face of competition. I feel a sense of urgency to stay fresh with my blog, current on my facebook, get my photos done faster, schedule more events, go, go, go… and for what?
From the top five competitors in the best portrait photography category, I am taking away a sense of what it takes to make it. And perhaps the anxiety I feel is because of the realization that I won’t be getting to that point where everything is perfect anytime soon. My business is a work in progress. And unless I wish to ship my toddler son off somewhere for a few weeks so mommy can stay competitive, I guess that’s the way it will be. And maybe it’s okay. They can have their best in western washington. For now, I’ll stay home on this gray day and hold my son this morning and sneak in some editing when he goes down for a nap. All the sudden, I see a little sunshine…
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